Its so time

I hate dieting, I really do, and for most of my life my motto was "you only live once". That was until I hit 200 pounds and counting. I have always had a love hate relationship with food, its just how I roll so therefor always struggling with my weight. Most of my childhood I was a tad over where I should be, or so I thought at the time. Looking back I think I looked great. I was a size 6 to 8 in high school which wasn't bad but when you hang out with girls that are 2's and 4's it seemed to be defeating.

The fall that Ry and I got engaged (actually started this pre engagement) I was around 176 pounds and needed to be thinner. Having been in a relationship and living together Ry and I both put on weight and really wanted it off! I started to run on the treadmill and my doctor prescribed me Phentermine. Phentermine is a prescription weight loss pill that you can get through your doctor. I used it for 2 months, basically to kick start my weight loss. I knew if I could see it coming off it would motivate me to do my part. So I started this drug, I liked what it did by suppressing my appetite so I didn't feel like I was starving-is that not the worst part about dieting! I HATE that part. Anyway, so I went in after 4 weeks, lost about 5-6 pounds and then repeated with about the same results.  I bought my wedding dress in a size 14 before Christmas in '07 but by our wedding in March '08 it was hanging off me. 

I got down to approximately 154. I looked great and felt the same. In March 2009 we found out we were pregnant with Keegan. I ate. I wont lie, I ate like it was going out of style and I was pretty sedentary. I hardly had energy in the first trimester to even get out of bed let alone take a walk around the block. Second Trimester brought back a little more energy but oh heavens the swelling started and I was not comfortable in my own skin. By the Third Trimester I was HUGE and could barely move, evidenced by this lovely:

By the time I delivered I was hovering up in the 220ish range and since I am only 5'4ish  its very noticeable. I hate when people make excuses but once he was born fatigue set in and then the diagnosis. Being a new mom I felt like I didn't have enough hours in the day to do what needed to be done let alone working out-although in hindsight that would have helped give me energy.

Once Keegan was diagnosed and we lived out of hospital rooms and Ronald McDonald houses I didn't eat well at all. Add onto that stress, no exercise and depression I just hovered in the 200-215 range. It has stayed that was for the last 2 years and I AM DONE! I am ready to reclaim my body for me!! I need it for myself, for my husband and our future children. I want my body back, my energy back and the double chins gone!

I have started on myfitnesspal.com . Back in 07 when I lost all that weight I just counted calories and stayed active and that is what this app does....since I don't have a smart phone though I use the computer/ipad. So it counts the calories for you and you can input exercise and it adjusts calories accordingly.

I was not made to be a small girl and ultimately I know the 154 range was probably a little too low for my body type. Realistically 30-40 pounds would be great! 

This is a "current" picture of me taken on vacation at the beginning of May, here is to hoping every update will be a little better! If anyone wants to join my journey on myfitnesspal.com my user name is MrsChupp08 and I will be updating here as well.