Unimaginable

We had our 3 month MRI yesterday. I would like to report that it was spectacularly clean, not a tumor that lit up. I would like to tell you that we danced out of the oncology unit with a "see you a 3 months" and were off to The Cheesecake Factory to celebrate.

But, that is not how our day turned out. We had the scan done and were up in the Oncology clinic by 11am. We were put in our room and told Dr. Shih would look at the scans and pop in to let us know what the preliminary results were. After waiting for about 30 minutes Dr. Shih enters our room along with our nurse practitioner Jayne. I knew by the looks on their faces that it wasn't good. Dr. Shih pulled up the trash can while Jayne sat in the rolly chair. As soon as they got settled in our Social worker joined the talk.

Keegan's latest MRI showed the cancer is back and worse than ever. Instead of just one tumor in his brain (original diagnosis) and the one in the spine, his brain and spine are covered in tumors. Simply put there is nothing more for the doctors to do. The cancer is winning. Dr. Shih told us we have been weeks and months left. He put him on two chemotherapy drugs that will have minimal side effects will giving us quality time.

So we left the clinic with instructions that HOSPICE would be calling and setting up our meeting. We left with a big void and broken hearts. How is my 2 year old only given weeks to months to live? I dont understand.